i wonder if there’s ever a way to keep things from haunting your mind? it should be a choice right? what you think about? then why are those images so clear, yet so unwanted?
i want to scream sometimes, just thinking about these crucial moments when i had to stay strong— those crucial moments in life that happen because they weren’t considerate enough to realize that i was not as strong as they wanted me to be—that i could not sustain their pain for them, & that it kills me when i try.
i pray so hard for strength, but even more for freedom… i really don’t understand though..
